Feeling bad..

hi bloggy.. I'm feeling bad today because I think I've hurt someone just now.. The story is like this.. I've been attending make up classes and health talks organised by "soon ye" under AMWAY. So I went to this health talk yesterday about H1N1 and cholesterol. After the talk, I went yumcha with the friends I met there. They are all very friendly people from different background, chemistry teacher, IT boy, student, Auditor, Accountant, one of the gril worked for MCA.. I have fun chatting with them because I like to share their experience. Then one of them showed me this video about a speech by this lady, lets call her Miss Tan. She is 60+ years old and she is very successful in AMWAY. Many people's lives were changed because of what she said. Then he told me that she is coming down to KL from Taiwan during 26-29 september and he tried to convince me to go..so he spent approximately more than half an hour convincing me to attend this talk...then another girl named janice started to convince me as well..she said something like " after you see the video clip in Taiwan, thousands of people attending her talk, don't you feel touched?"...I look at her expression and I could see she expected me be be touched..so I just gentle nodded my head..but the fact is I DONT FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL..the video clip shows a successful lady influencing thousands of people..and I'm sure that many were touched by her testimony and take her as their goal or idol... but to influent me..it will be HARD!!!!Extremely hard. I have no interest to go to this talk which I have to stay 3 days in Genting and pay RM350. Besides, I'm going to fraser hill with my family during that period.=)=)=)...I miss fraser hill so so much. So today was the deadline of the registration for this genting trip and I texted one of my fren there-jocelyn telling her I've decided not to go..then Jun Pin called..I was sleeping and didn't manage to pick up his call..so i called him back.. And he asked me about this trip.. and i went I'm not going.. I don't feel like going.. Okie Bye Duuuu..... ARGHHHHHH...I felt so bad..I think the contributing factors are 1)I just woke up 2)I got frustrated about all the convincing 3)I wanna make myself clear but no excuse to be rude to someone right??? Hiahz...=( anyway.. A person like me who don't get a damn *sorry* for ANY concert and never bought an original CD in my life before..the only sah CDs i'm willing to splurge on are christian CDs..and I did bought 2 original cassettes which are simple plan and "Na Ying". =) So called me a weirdoo... For me to spend RM350 to go up to Genting for a talk by Miss Tan? HARD... Soon ye is a place to learn about how to live a better life..and to start your career in AMWAY..if you are successful, you can go for trips around the world fully sponsored by AMWAY...interesting isn't it?? There are so many testimonies shared and so many people's lives changed. They are all very friendly and good people.. But somehow I know that Soon Ye is not a place for me. I love the people, I love to learn.. But I can't give any commitment to Soon Ye or AMWAY. Sorry to Jun Pin and sorry to whoever that is trying hard to convince me to enter AMWAY..