At this hour

At this hour

I'm sitting in the office, alone.

Hours of running about with no time to breathe.

No one to share because they don't understand, tired to express because there is no solution.

Yes, I'm stress. I really am.

All I think about at night is priorities, who to call and who to meet the next day.

Appointments after appointments, complaints and dissatisfactions.

People are hard to please, everyone fighting for their own benefits.

Christmas is round the corner, I really wish to have a day of rest, a nice dinner with my family with wine and turkey.

But I don't feel Christmas this year, no time for God, no time for family and no time for friends

I gave cash as presents to my brother and my parents. They were happy but I felt horrible. 

Everyone is planning something for Christmas, I miss caroling and going to church. I miss going to the malls and checking out Christmas deco...I miss the Christmas tree at home.

This year, Mum refused to set up the tree, saying that it's too troublesome. 

Christmas night is without plan, I think Mum is trying to save money.

I had lunch with Mum the other day and for a moment, I look deep into her. I saw the lines around her eyes and realized how old she looks. I wish I could ask her to stop working and let me take care of her...but I couldn't...

One woman, a whole family. 

My heroin is she.

Christmas is near and I hope that my heroin can get a nice dress for herself and I hope that someone can ta pao food for me because I'm starving.

Sparks

I need some sparks in my life
My world has turned grey without a guide
Show me the purpose of my existence
Your plan for me throughout eternity

I need some sparks in my life
Because wine and food do not satisfy me
They made me hunger for more but never fill me
Only You, my Lord could complete me

I need some sparks in my life
A light from heaven to shine
To ignite this cold heart and make it warm
An eternal fire that will not be gone

I need some sparks in my life
To teach me how to live
Because very often I'm blended into the deep
Without realising the difference it made

I need some sparks in my life
To learn how to love and not to fight
Oh Lord, please send me your light
So that You and I could once again unite.

Frustrated

It's so frustrating to rely on irresponsible people who doesn't understand the urgency of the matter.
If the deadline is friday, get the things done on friday, not going MIA when I needed explanation from you!!



I'm so disappointed.



=(

Interview

Just had an interview with a 32 years old lady, diploma holder in Nutrition.

Amy: "Do you know what is marketing?"

Lady: "Errr...make people know about your product."

Amy: "Hmm...elaborate?"

Lady:" I don't know much about marketing."

Amy: "Do you like to meet new people?"

Lady: *Smile*, "Meeting people is my weakness."

Amy: "Do you like challenges?"

Lady: "Errr....depends what challenges loh."

Patah hati.

There she goes...

And there I was, for a moment unable to describe how I exactly felt when you left.
It was sudden.
I do not how to react.
It's a new feeling, 1st time in 23 years.

It's like losing a limb from my body.
You somewhat complimented my weaknesses.
In a way, I depended on you.

Although it's not long, but we did eat, drink, shop, play and work together.
You feel what I felt.
Remember when we forgot the boxes of products (which the barcodes was on it)?
Remember when we scratch our heads trying to figure out how it all works?
Remember when we have to wait outside Guardian for Je**** and eat every words she said silently with a rush to kill her.

And so much more....











I'll miss you.

Street Awareness Campaign

I've organised a lot of church activities, planning for evangelistic meetings, visitations, gatherings, outings...but never a street awareness campaign.
Tomorrow, Zuccari will be having its very first street awareness campaign, organised by me and Ida.*proud*

It has been fun going shopping, picking up the the blouses, fairy wings and tutu for Re-Code's mascot-the fairy, choosing balloons, planning the budget, hiring promoters and getting everything ready for the BIG DAY!!

Now that it is close to the big day, the excitement comes together with a sense of fear, fear that something might go wrong tomorrow...
Like Bc said, you can only foresee 70% of your project, the other 30% are unforeseeable circumstances .

Cross my fingers and hope everything will turn out to be smooth tomorrow.

Right now

Right now,

I feel like packing my bagpack and fly to Tahiti.

I miss the beach........I miss it all the time.